Rock is Dead!

Long live paper and scissors :P

<- Gene Simmons, still quite cool.....

Firstly, sorry for not posting last week, things are a little hectic here. Okay I know, thats no excuse, but hey I'm back :)

Secondly I am majorly excited :) I just bought the Bf and I airfares to Wellington. We are heading that way over Easter for a few reasons. One of those being that I haven't had any time off since June/July last year (I worked right through Christmas, including Christmas day). Another reason is because we are going to ROCK2WTN where we will get to see Kiss, Alice Cooper and much more Rock/Metal/80's goodness. Oh its gonna be great :) 10 hrs over 2days, in the pit of course.... I think that this will be one of those things that'll stick with me forever. Can you tell my excitement? Lol.

If your into that sort of thing, and especially KISS, you should totally check out this guys blog, honestly something that starts with "Ive got Gene Simmons blood on my hands" has to be gripping :)

Speaking of Gene Simmons, he makes a guest appearance in the latest Ugly Betty Episode, 'A Thousand Words By Friday'. I wont tell you the context because it would spoil it for you. Its a good show by the way, full of laughs and sweetness. And it has Freddy Rodriguez, who Ive developed quite a liking for. Lol.

Sticking to the musicish thing, I was sent a link to this video the other day, by someone whose taste in music, rarely lets me down.



Her talent is amazing, and even inspiring. There is a passion about her that is refreshing, I think I shall keep an eye on her.

Man am I loving blogger and the Interweb, I can link Vids up here, thats awesome :) The possibilities must be endless :P

On a final note for this entry, My neighbors in the front flat have recently got a kitten. Strangely it has attached itself to me, and likes to follow me around and come into my place. I thought that my Demon Kitties would be unimpressed. Leila attacked a cat wearing a funnel the other day.... However, she seems to have gone all paternal on the little one.... I anxiously watch this development...

I'm gonna make you a mix tape. You like Phil Collins?

I've got two ears and a heart, don't I?

There is something oddly alluring and even kinda sexy about Tina Fey (yes I know I'm a chick, but there is nothing wrong with appreciating fineness).




I thought to myself a couple of weeks ago that I should really give that 30 Rock a go. I hit an obstacle almost immediately, when I discovered that TvLinks had been shut down long ago. So after searching for a bit then a little try and error, I discovered SideReel, it seems to be the best option for viewing this particular show. It gives you the option of formats and host sites, so you can choose what best suits you, love it.

Anyway, after 3 episodes I was hooked. Its quirky and brilliant, with all the right ingredients for the perfect sitcom recipe: Take one enduringly neurotic character, Place in a well greased suburban setting, Fold in a quirky neighbor, but leave some aside for a spin off series later, Cover with wealth and unreality, Sift in an attractive but unattainable love interest, Drizzle through bad canned laughter, In a separate bowl whip together some bad lyrics and a cheesy tune,Over bake in a hot oven of media publicity and speculation, Decorate with B grade celebrity cameos. Plus Alec Baldwin, I mean jeez its not a movie without a Baldwin, and here we have a TV series with one!

The whole moving on and creating a life that I require, Is heaps harder than it seems. I have had 2 conversations of late that come to mind. One was incredibly detrimental, all the progress I had made at making myself stronger, more in control, a better person, went out the window in the space of 3 minutes. I hated myself again, I wanted to end it all, the Gollum was in full swing. In short I felt insanely guilty for things that should be well and truly under the bridge. The other was just strange, me realizing that parts of me still linger, feelings and emotions remain, ones that I need to come to terms with.

In other news, I appear to have an interesting cat situation. Twice in the last 5 days I have arrived home to find feathers every where. I know the cat can climb in the window with bird in mouth, I have witnessed her accomplish this amazing feat. However, after searching absolutely everywhere and questioning the cat, I cannot find said bird(s). I am concerned that she may be devouring them, and that it may be detrimental to her health...

New Years Resolutions....

Have an incredibly low success rate. But here I am trying to make one work.

Its a new year, I have a new residence, a new boyfriend and a new lease on life.

My New Years resolution? To get my plans and life on track, starting with my website and blog. I shall attempt to post every Tuesday, I believe if I set the time aside, it is accomplishable (I'm not sure that that is even a word...) Then, maybe, I'll start on the typically failed resolutions, eat better, go to church more, loose weight etc.

So much has changed in me and my life in the last six months. I moved out of a living situation that everyone bar myself saw as detrimental. Now that I'm out of it, I know where they were all coming from. I now live by myself, by myself I mean that I live with those two rascally kitties of mine (they are not to bad really) if it wasn't for them I would go mad from solitude.

The new boyfriend is for the first time in my life, not that in to computers, I think I actually out geek him, lol, its a new experience for me, and I'm actually enjoying normal people activities like walking the dog and playing social sports. Yeah sports, I know! The boyfriend and I co-captain a soccer team called Kerplunk, I play every Wednesday that I can escape work. We aren't very successful.

Work is one thing that I haven't changed yet, I guess I'm casually looking for alternative employment, but 60hr weeks don't really leave time for that. Its not as bad as it used to be, I guess I feel a little appreciated at the moment, I wont say that the pay rises haven't affected that.

If I ever bore you with detail and honesty I apologize, thats one of the steps in my new direction, honesty is incredibly important, without it you end up hurting yourself and those you care most for. Sorry to those that I stuffed around over the last few years, thank you to those who have forgiven me.

I diagnosed myself with a multiple personality disorder a couple of years ago, no I am not qualified for that sort of thing, but I always said, why should I go see a shrink when all they are going to do is tell me what I already know? When you have multiple personalities you have two options, they are not clear cut, but in the basic view, you can either accept them or reject them. I think that the best option varies between people and the different personalities that you have. I tried accepting mine (I have 8 at casual count) but they are all rather different, don't get me wrong, they have pieces that tie them together. But when you have a very promiscuous character and a very devoted monogamous character within the same person, your bound to have problems. And I did, I hurt two very wonderful men, and I hated myself for it. The guilt and the hatred bring out the most feared of myselves, the one that we called the Gollum. It wants nothing but to hurt me. So as I found, I was getting nowhere. It was time to stir things up, start again. For the last few months, I have been carefully constructing cages and walls within myself, ones that will help me control my mees. The me that is in control is one that I am happy with, she seems reasonable and behaved, she is not strong tho, and I will have to work on that.

The next while will not be easy, I know this, but I must try. And if you want to follow the progress, that is fine. I promise that not every entry will be this boring :)