A year gone by

Seeing as the year is almost up and time is short during the silly season I thought Id address the year reflection now…

When I think of the year just been, it is hard to separate it from the 3 years previous as a journey I have been on. Looking at the 3/4 years gone by I can see many changes that I have been through, some small, some so completely drastic that thinking of it now its quite scary.

Compared to 21yr old Me the 25 yr edition is physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually a very different person. (And in a brief flit to a 17yr version, I don’t think the 2 would recognise each other) Seriously I was thinking about it yesterday and it made me feel friggin old. We had a family Christmas do, my little cousin Jess was there and she is an almost exact replica of my 10yr old self, 2 more of my cousins are pregnant which prompted one of my uncles to rub my stomach and ask when mines coming... a good mate asked me the same question this week and the mans family are making not so subtle hints, even a work colleague mentioned that this time next year id be on maternity leave... all were met with the same response "let me get the friggin wedding out of the way first"

I’ve finally come to terms with the fact that I am not where I wanted to be at this age. Coinciding with that I think I may have finally found me, breakdowns are less frequent, and...

I’ve learnt that I cant make everyone happy, sometimes you do need to put yourself first, live a little, drugs aren’t the epitome of evil, be open and honest with all, even if that means letting your grandmother be friends with you on facebook, move on, grow up, its probably not your fault, some people will never forgive you, that’s their issue not yours, you can't spend your whole life feeling guilty, love is a very complicated and layered thing, some people just will never like you, smile and nod, make time for yourself, spend time with those you care about, don’t worry about telling someone you need some time alone, take joy in the little things, and always wear your seat belt.

The fact that it has taken me this long to learn all these things pisses me off, the fact that in my 25th year everything finally makes sense is a relief. The knowledge that when I’m 30 ill think differently again makes me smile rather than frown. I think I can finally call myself an adult.

Have an awesome Christmas, drink and be merry :)

Christmas.

Man am I sick of it. Looking forward to running away from work for 2 weeks on Christmas eve.

Engagement Party!

The nicest my nails/hand has ever looked. Had my nails done to complement my beautiful ring. The engagement party was on Saturday and went off without a hitch. Everyone was well fed and merry, Christchurch put on a pearler for us.

Attack of the Brightly coloured santas

This is a picture of only one wall of colour, before its even complete. For 2 months each year we are inundated with they colourful works of the children/grandchildren of the staff throughout the country. The pictures (now complete) total around 5hundy and are pasted floor to ceiling over 4 walls of the reception area. It is a terrifying ordeal.

Sorry that I have been lax in the type, been busy window shopping online for wedding stuff lol. Speaking of which, our engagement party is finally happening next weekend. That should be quite the exciting ordeal. I am a little nervous about the whole centre of attention thing tho.

We won our first game in ages at Soccer the other night. It has been hard without our strikers. But I have started playing midfield now. No, I still haven't scored a goal, but I get closer with every game :D

My future sister in law had her baby last week, hes a cute little tyke, they have named him Connor. For some reason this gives my fiance range to make Highlander jokes. Also with the spring air, My Mums horses have had a foal each. They are the cutest things. I have been trying to get out to the property once a week to see them.

That's all for now, Ill try to remember to post next week :P

And the planning begins...

Well, <- this is where we are getting married. The dates been set and the venue has been booked and paid for. Its all very exciting and it means we can start other plans. The venue is The Old Stone House, its a charming historical building in Cashmere, Christchurch. My Aunt got married there years ago, and it was beautiful. It is the perfect venue for us, as we can have the ceremony in their picturesque gardens and the reception inside. We can use whatever caterers etc that we like and are not bound to buy beverages from the venue. Roll on Sat 25th Sep 2010 :D

Other than that we have decided on our color scheme, black and white. Decided to only have one brides maid and groomsman. Designed an invite for and a date for our engagement party. And Ive started looking at dresses.... I never anticipated that it would be this much fun :)

Best Weekend Ever!

So to celebrate our 2 year anniversary I took my man on a surprise trip to Wanaka. We both took the Friday off work and drove down in our new car.






The car by the way is awesome, really economical and a joy to drive. I think I'm getting an awesome usb car stereo for Christmas, so very excited :)

We arrived at our hotel the Oakridge Resort and checked into our room. It was small, and the bed was huge! It was really nice and swanky with heated tiles in the bathroom. The only disappointment would be that the window was facing the wrong way for any scenery :(

I was informed that I was not to get my anniversary pressie til later that evening. So we went out to dinner. We both are quite big fans of Mexican so went to a restaurant called Amigoes. Being a Friday night and having not booked we were told that there would be an hour wait. As we were on holiday we said that was fine and went for a nice night time stroll along the lake. When we got back to the restaurant our table was set and waiting for us, the service was superb and food delicious. If you are ever in Wanaka you should totally go there. But maybe you should look at making a booking first :)

When back at the hotel I went to the bathroom and when I came out there was a large parcel on the bed. Perplexing for awhile as to how he would've fit that large box in our luggage without me noticing he demanded I sit down and read the card first. The card consisted of his usual cheesy romantic and humorous poetry. The last line being "but only if you will be my wife?" at first I thought he was just saying it, but then a ring was produced, not too dissimilar to the one pictured. And now my man is my fiance and I feel the luckiest woman in the world. The ring is nothing like the ones I have pointed out. But that almost makes it more special. He picked it out all by himself and actually put some thought into it :D

In the morning we had a delicious cooked breakfast at Kai Whakapai followed by a beautiful walk around the lake. Apparently it was raining at home, but the weather in Wanaka was perfect, we even got sunburned. After hanging out at Puzzling World for a couple of hours we went back to the hotel to soak in the hot pools. We finished our day at the Paradiso cinema. This has got to be one of the most unique and greatest "cinematic adventures" (Dane Cook) that I have ever experienced. We turned up and had delicious pizza for dinner, sat in a uber comfy couch to watch Inglorious Basterds and we could actually here the projector ticking over, very old school and awesome. We were even given an intermission, where we ate ice cream that was made on site!

Sunday we had a beautiful drive home, I am totally over the moon :D

2years

Just a few things, 2moro is my 2 year anniversary with my man, that went crazy fast. I'm taking him on a surprise trip to Wanaka for the weekend, very excited :) Will be driving our new car, that he doesn't know I've bought yet hehe. To tired to work on projects tonight, plus I have to pack so that all for this Thurs. Nite all.

E's mobile blog

So totally awesome. Got myself a new phone 'Sony Ericsson W580i' and on it I can send pics straight to blogger. You have to ignore my ugly mug, its just that that was the first photo I took. looking forward to posting random stuff that I see :D

Demon Kitties

That's right, its finally here, needs some tweaking for next week tho. But at least its up and getting there. You can check out Teh Demon Kitties HERE.



While I'm at it the Vampire blog is building up too... LINK

Resign, Again...

^ Hilarious.

Wow, 2 entries in as many days... Don't expect this to be a common occurrence.

I arrived at my weekend job today to an envelope of "mistakes" (3weeks after the fact). After looking at them and seeing that they were nothing, realising that I had fixed worse mistakes made by the "supervisor", and seeing my new roster, I promptly rang my partner and then typed up my resignation. It is apparent to me that my suspicions were correct and they are trying to push me out.

I do not see resigning as being weak in this instance but more acknowledging that I am better than that.

Good news is now I have more time for my man and my projects :)

After the week from hell.

I'm only just starting to pull myself together after the week from hell that I had a fortnight ago.

In light tho, now that I look at it, it could have been worse. When I stated to my Mum that I had had a week from Hell she just replied with "Well your Man hasn't left you has he?" Shes right.

But why was my week so terrible? Well firstly I was already in a down rut. Over stress at work, tired, annoyed at my not moving anywhere, see my previous post for the background. But the things in life that stress me most are money, work and men. Luckily there are no men problems atm. I am being blissfully unaware of any man that may be attracted in me other than my partner. Its simple and nice that way :)

On the money and work front however.... arrggghhhh!

Somehow I had managed to slam my seat belt in the door of my car. Easy enough to do I suppose. But annoyingly part of the plastic bit broke off in the door and what would you know, now my door cant open... Bah! So on Monday I drop the car in at the panel beaters.

Also on Monday I get a call from my weekend job telling me that I have been making mistakes. They will not however tell me what these mistakes are. "How can I fix them, or look out for them if I do not know what I am doing wrong?" I am still waiting to hear what these so called mistakes are, as far as I am aware, they are non-existent.

One Wednesday I get a letter from my weekday job telling me that they are upset with the way I am approaching some tasks, and that I am to have a meeting on Friday afternoon. Great! I ball my eyes out on the way to the panel beaters to pick up the car, they stab me with $475 (was going to be $675!) Insane "This is a whole weeks wages" I say as I enter my pin into the machine. I kinda feel sorry for the guy, cos he probably thinks that I was bawling over that. Sure I was upset about it, but I could not get any worse than I already was.

On Friday, after days of stressing, I have this 'meeting', which was really a pain in the arse, I wasn't really in trouble at all, they just wanted to intimidate me and make it a formal affair , when it could have just been a casual chat about some new things that they want me to do now.

Anyway, I'm slowly pulling myself back together, I've stepped my job hunt a little and Ive started a new project Eternal-E (btw 'Slime' is mine, please don't steal it).

Oh well to a bed I must go, to sleep, perchance to dream.

Im not Shakespeare, But I do say pretty much the same thing...

That of course, is utter crock, just something I heard on Comedy Central today, that plus the stick figure Hamlet that you can find HERE, all ties in with the procrastination thing...

Alas I lack the money and the motivation to do what I want with my life. What I do now is certainly not what I want to spend the rest of my days doing, I know I'm better than this, and I know I will never win the lotto :(

You see I seem to have the most crushingly bad luck, (I would say I never win anything, but the fact that I won a chocolate bar 2 days ago, contradicts that statement). Every time I seem to be getting somewhere in life, IE. the amazing pace that I am managing to pay off my debts ATM, something happens... I have 2 cars. This in itself is not very good economically, that coupled with the fact that I am continuously having to fix them is insane. I have decided that in the long run it would be best to trade both vehicles in for a new one. This is something that I wish to do by the end of the month... What have I done to move towards this? Other than browse the vehicle listings? Nothing! *shakes head at own pityfulness* So 2Moro I must remember to email the car yards in town, and ask what they can offer me... fingers crossed that goes to plan.

When my partner and I moved into our flat together we had the idea of saving up enough money for a deposit on a house. Unfortunately with the GEC and pay freezes any money that we could have potentially put aside is going on the inflated cost of living. I work 7days a week so that we can actually progress in this life rather than going backwards. Much to my partners disgust he has noticed himself developing into a little house husband of sorts... But I love him for it, I know he only does it to make things a little easier for me.

Ive been getting rather depressed with it all, I'm sick of being in a dead end job, with lack of appreciation, and movements up the ranks or the like. I am actually contemplating going back to retail, as at least there is that opportunity... I guess a change is what I need, my workplace is very depressing ATM and some of my closest colleagues will be leaving in the next month :(

I have so many plans of what I want to do, but lack the time, ways, means, motivation and even knowledge of how to get it all off the ground. They range from business ventures big and small to personal improvement. I just always feel like I'm waiting for something to happen to give me that head start....

Website/Web comic- that's just a matter of time and enthusiasm. Every time I go to work on it something seems to go wrong, so I spend a good hour fixing it, and then I feel un-enthused. I have a few hand drawn of the comic that need scanning and posting up, although that seems like a small thing, I still need to make a page that will work for that browsing wise, I'm still not entirely sure how to do that, or how I want to do it. Still a beginner on this sort of thing.

Oh well more on this another time, E

Well its about time....

That's right, the procrastination bug has bitten again...

So here I am finally typing an update. For some reason working up the effort and energy to type up a blog or work on my website these days. There are a few things I can poke my finger at to blame, just cos that's what procrastinators do. One is that I work 7days a week at the moment, so the thought of using my spare time to 'work' is crushing. Plus I usually put Thursday nights aside to work on that stuff. For the last few months those Thursday nights have been poached by a friend who needs to hang out. I think however she has found her feet again, and I can now get back on track. Thing is, I had last Thursday all to myself, and all I wanted to do is play demo games and blob. I should really be taking advantage of the time I have at work on the weekends to do this blog thing...

I apologise for the following format, its just that I don't want to miss anything out.

Exercise - Yeah that's right, other than climbing the stairs at home or work, other than indoor soccer once a week. I bought myself Wiifit for my Birthday (I will address the age thing later in the post), and I am astounded at the amazing technology involved in the device (Ill do an actual review of if on my Review sight). The reason? I am sick of being fat. I have always been voluptuous, but lately my stomach size has been concerning me, and making me more self conscious than usual. The Wii has even told me that I am morbidly obese (only a very slight exaggeration of words there). So I have been making sure I do half an hour of aerobic exercise on it a day. After as week, I think that maybe I see a small change, Ill keep you updated on that one.

Birthday - Oh yay, 25! (said sarcastically) I usually have little quarter life crises around every bday, but this time its a real quarter century crises. I was supposed to be married by now with at least one child on the way... Damn life and the expectations we put on our selves. I was also supposed to be well on my way to becoming a famous film director, hmmmmm I haven't even made anything since Uni. So in a bid to get this overdue life on track I have of course taken on too many tasks and goals. I am working 2 jobs (seven days a week) in order to pay off my debts and actually make a little leeway during this GEC. That's going well, and at the rate I am going I should be in a good place come Christmas next year :) Somehow by that time I also have to; buy my macbook and camcorder, finish my screen play, and at least start filming my first movie, My man and I wish to be in our own house by then, hopefully with at least engagement ring, and we want to have a nice big new shiny TV. That's a lot to get done in a year and a half, especially now that I have taken on the role of unpaid marketing manager for my mans family business...

Cat/Dog situation - The Dog it appears is hopelessly in love with the Cat, much to her disgust. She still rules the roost tho, and he knows it. This Dog is a convicted cat killer, yet he lets her eat his food and drink from is bowl... We thought that maybe this is because he is getting old, 10yrs for a Staffy is impressive. He is definitely no longer the guard dog he once was, don't say it too loudly, but I think hes losing his hearing. No longer does he start barking when someone walks past our gate, or even come through it, not until they knock on the door does he notice... Plus he seems to be going off at ghosts lately... However he did shoot off after the neighbours cat last week, so not all is lost.

Education - I want some day to own a store/Internet cafe, a restaurant, a bar, and maybe even a clothing line. I know that these are lofty dreams, but I really really want them. I figure to help these things along the way I should to a management/business course part time via correspondence. This would mean even less me time... But I am certain it would be rewarding. And what the hey, what another couple of grand on a already large student loan? It is interest free... We will be looking at the beginning of the year intake next year. Which means I have to get my website and my mans family business website made and at a state that I only have to update them occasionally by New years... Now that's a time line... Especially for a procrastinator like me... Who is only really learning the website thing... Maybe I should start scheduling my time...

Gaming - The Man and I have been WoWing a little, we are now level 46 and successfully 2mand Scarlet Monastery last week. Also He bought me Guitar Hero World Tour (the band edition) for my Bday, when I have the time, I'm loving it :P

Mental health - It is my blessing and my curse that I put others above myself, all the time. As a result of this, the overwork, and my general mental un-stableness, I have been depressed for the last month. I do like that I am able to talk about it so matter of factly on this medium, something that I can only really do with a few men in my life. The Man, thinks that he has failed at making me happy, or that's what he says anyway, I am sure tho that he understands that that really is not the case at all. I am incredibly happy with him and everything he does for me, this is just different.

Holiday - On the note of being extactic with him, we went to Australia's Gold Coast in April. Despite the miserable weather (that is very uncharacteristic) we had a wonderful time, visiting all the theme parks, Movie World and White Water world being by far our favorites. It was exactly what we needed for our relationship and our bodies needed that holiday too.

Soccer - Last time I typed I mentioned reaching the final. Well we lost, really badly. Now we are sitting near the bottom of the table for this season. Its ok, we can make up for it again next season I suppose... I hope anyway. Now if only my damned ankle will come right.

Television - In closing, I hate living in NZ! Season 2 of True Blood started tonight in America, who knows how long it will be for us to get it. Season 1 only just finished. I really love it, possibly cos I lurvvveee vampires.... I was thinking the other day, if I was one Id be able to do all the things I want to do in my life easy, cos Id have forever to do it, wouldn't matter if I was a procrastination. If you haven't checked out True Blood, you should, and also if you haven't seen the website, go check it out at www.hbo.com/trueblood there are some really cool things there, including mock companies and advertising, or is it real?

We meet again nemesis...

Daphne is an awesome character in Heroes, but that is not my reasoning for this title...

We made the final! (indoor soccer), and we will be playing our arch rival team, which includes my nemesis, Steam Roller... I'm excited and nervous, all at the same time, not to mention concerned for my personal safety. Last time we played them, he did not play due to the fact that he was concerned that he may hurt me again... The time before that, concussion, the time before that, elbow in the jaw.... Understand my concern then you will *Yoda giggle*

Reaching the final is a big thing for us, The team currently known as Anonymous (previously Kerplunk) has played out much like a Disney movie. We lost our first ever game, 24-0... So bad were we at the sport that the organisers used to always make us play the new teams, so that they felt good. Slowly we got better, learnt to play as a team, increased our ball skills so that last season we made the semi final (which we lost to our arch rivals). Then, after playing for a year and a half, a role reversal, we won a game 19-1, we then won a semi-final 8-4. And now we play our first final on Sunday, historically not a good day for us to play sports, but we will play a final none the less, and we are ecstatic.


I know that it has been awhile since I have typed, It seems that if I was doing the once a month thing that I skipped Feb by accident. I could blame an array of things but the truth is, I was just bit by the procrastination bug, again.... I was going to write one up in Feb, titled 'It was a trip that has killed relationships' (more on that later) and within it link the first episode of 'Teh Demon Kitties' comic, and show the updated web page. But alas. That is not to say that I haven't been working on such things, if you check out the site, it is slightly different... But I have done a lot of work offline for it, planing, drawing, writing. There are in fact 6 complete 'Demon Kitties' strips, I just need to scan and upload them. Fear not, behind the scenes the mass looms. Or should I say, fear, fear lots.

So, the trip that kills relationships, or at least has, one... Is one that is travelling down south to visit family. My previous relationship showed its rips and thorns on this trip. Made me lack faith in the durability of the relationship, and caused my others to wander. That's not to say that this was the one and only thing that ruined the relationship, I know that I should have tried harder and that a lot of it is my fault. But during this trip I saw things in that man that I didn't like. And when your stuck in a car with someone for that long, it feels unbearable. But anyway the point of this we rant is that I braved it, tried it again with my current man. And it couldn't have gone better :) We had a ball, and it may have been exactly what we needed. Some time together with out distractions.

Other updates;

Leila and Thorne - Still both alive, still annoying each other. He is now allowed upstairs, much to her disgust, and it can be very annoying when it comes to bed time... They are seriously like young siblings. We have thought up some interesting strips for the comic involving them both.

WoW - My man has come to quite enjoy it, sacrificing around 4 hours a week to play it with me atm. We are now lvl 35, and he still find it lacks challenge. I do think that the mobs are easier than they used to be...

Mental Health - Well, due to my own fault, I should know better by now, added with the stresses of work atm. I had another breakdown last night. I think I have pushed parts of me too hard and could be on the verge of a disaster. Ive pulled out the DucTape and am trying to mend it all quickly. Hopefully I am not too late. The well over-due holiday in April should help.

That's right off to Surfers Paradise in QLD Australia for 12nights, just me and my man :D

The Silly Season

I think that this year I finally know the true meaning of that title. The holidays are over, and OMG I sooooo need a holiday...



I had a little over a week off during this time, but that time was spent entertaining, cooking and cleaning. Is that really a holiday?
But okay, I'm a little strange, I actually enjoy the cooking, I enjoy having the friends and/or family over and playing hostess. And I do it well (if I do say so myself lol), at least I think I do, I get lots of compliments anyway.

Another good thing about it was spending some much needed time with my man. I got him the new Red Alert for Christmas, so he needed a PC to run it. So off we went to Dragon PC and got them to make up a nice new minimum spec for him. Hes happy, it does what he needs it to do. It also means that he can play WoW with me finally. So we have a nice little pair going on, he being a rather n00by human mage, and me healing his arse and tanking with a Drunei Shaman. Lvl 20 currently and he just starting to really get in it. It is a whole heap of fun.

But here I am on a Monday morn at work, and its the last place I want to be. The weekend wasn't long enough to get rid of the mind space I'm in after the horrid week that was last week. I have said Ill give my year here, so roll on those Easter Holidays (we are off to the gold coast) and when I get back we shall start the new job hunt. It just seems so far away, and I am so very depressed with the whole work thing today.