Life of E

Itsa Big Belly!

2011-05-16T21:16:00.001-07:00

27 weeks.

Christchurch Quake

2011-02-28T17:03:00.001-08:00

As you would have seen from the Robo-Dog post we are ok. We were at my grandfathers funeral when the quake hit, which although harrowing was a relief to see that everyone in my family was safe.
Our only concern is half of our income, the photo is of the entrance to Nigels mall. The whole inner city is a no go zone, so we dont know when we will be able to get in there, it could be months before he can open again, if ever in that spot.

Robo-Dog

2011-02-26T01:25:00.001-08:00

3months

2011-02-12T14:53:00.001-08:00

Yeah thats how far along the alien in my belly is. Do u think Thorne knows?

That time of year again...

2010-12-16T17:51:00.001-08:00

Honeymoon - last blog day.

2010-11-23T04:04:00.001-08:00

Went to Australia Zoo today, (Nige says 'Crickey!', *rolls eyes*) saw Crocs, Tigurrrs and Cassowary's etc (I gots to pat a baby croc).
Got sunburnt, look like the prawns I had in my dinner :-(
2moro its off to brissy and home on Thurs, we are looking forward to seeing our furbabies, but not getting back to reality.

Honeymoonn day 13

2010-11-22T07:20:00.001-08:00

Lazy day, as was yesterday, all good, lovin Mooloolaba.

Honeymoon day 11

2010-11-20T02:30:00.001-08:00

Icky weather, could be this way for a few days yet.
Went to Underwater World tho and saw all the cute and fearsome critters.

Honeymoon day 10?

2010-11-19T01:36:00.001-08:00

Just Kidding, Nigey be fine. Mooloolaba is teh awesomes, please send more moneys so dont have to come home :-P
Went to place called Vibes for dinners, foods was awesome and not too spensive, drinks insane tho! $12 Oz for Heiny!?

Honeymoon day 9.

2010-11-18T06:32:00.001-08:00

Went to WB Movieworld, Nige had an accident... A swift burial followed, but the engraver thought he was a baker... :-P

Honeymoon day 8.

2010-11-17T06:37:00.001-08:00

Went to WhiteWater World 2day, weather was perfect.
For the evening we went to the Prince Albert bar at Jupiters for delicious dinner, free comedy and a giant cocktail!

Honeymoon day 7

2010-11-16T07:06:00.001-08:00

As yesterday was full of travel and hangover (we got a little excited with the cricket) we felt no worthy info for an entry.
Today tho, was a pearler, we walked from Broadbeach to Surfers, visited Ripleys and ate at Hard Rock :-)

Honeymoon day 5

2010-11-14T02:20:00.001-08:00

Last day in Sydney, we break all the rules.

Honeymoon day 5

2010-11-13T06:01:00.001-08:00

Not much to say today but... Tallica!
Twas epic, specially One followed by Master of Puppets!
Teh set was awesome but Sydney locals are teh borezor.

Honeymoon day 4

2010-11-12T03:20:00.001-08:00

Despite flu like symtoms, we had a big day today. Caught the ferry over to Luna Park (in the distance) then dinner at the sub-par Blackbird cafe.

Honeymoon day 3

2010-11-11T03:33:00.001-08:00

Went for a swim first thing this morn, was lovely as we had teh pool all to ourselves.
We then spent the rest of day at paddys markets and china town, bought a knock off guess bag!
Finished the day at the Sky Sydney 360 restaurant (see view above) Dad if ur reading this, the prawns were delish :-P

Honeymoon Day 2

2010-11-10T00:13:00.001-08:00

Beautiful day in Sydney. Walked to Hyde Park and spent the morning at the museum. We continued through the botanical gardens down to circular quay, the bridge and opera house. After a chocolate degutation platter at the Guilyan Cafe we made our way back to our accom just intime to miss the rain and thunder :-D

Honeymoon~day 1

2010-11-09T01:53:00.001-08:00

Arrived in Sydney, one hour late, but safe and sound.
The diggs is sweet, this be the view.
Had delish dinner at Maloneys for only $22.90 Australian total!

Yes that would be another ring on my finger.

2010-10-03T18:56:00.001-07:00

All marrie now with a month to plan our honeymoon. For some amazing pics go to www.visser.co.nz/hotrods

Camping out in the car.

2010-09-03T12:01:00.001-07:00

7.4 Earthquake 30k away at 4.35am. Scariest thing.

Akl weekend part 2.

2010-08-29T16:45:00.001-07:00

1950's pinup makeup on, waiting to board the flight home.

Akl - Girls Weekend.

2010-08-27T21:39:00.001-07:00

Veiw from the sky tower compleate with rainbow.

Cake day!

2010-07-23T20:55:00.001-07:00

Messy decorating day.

Another runners up trophy...

2010-07-17T23:39:00.001-07:00

Im so clever.

2010-07-16T22:08:00.001-07:00

Refusing to spend 3hundy american or more on a topper hat for the wedding I made my own :-D

My Grandma,

2010-07-16T20:04:00.001-07:00

What big teeth u have.

Go Netherlands!

2010-06-19T17:04:00.001-07:00

Thorne shows his support as Holland plays Japan.

Cuddling

2010-05-22T06:58:00.001-07:00

Mums lap is good excuse...

Please!

2010-05-16T14:42:00.000-07:00

Firstly please follow this link and vote for my proposal story "Anniversary Surprise"

Now you may read updates :P

This picture is of the amazing skirt that my bridesmaids will be wearing on the big day. Its from the-gothic-shop. They are a very cool uk store, reliable, efficient, and their items are superb quality.
The girls will be wearing this skirt, teamed with a black peasant top, white waspie and cute as bolero. All from the same store. NZ really doesnt have many options within our theme :( Good thing that so many awesome stores globally have online options, loving the global market.

Other wedding news would be that my future neice is very excited about being our flower girl. We went out last week and she selected a pattern and some material for her dress (which she calls her "wedding dress" lol) So things seem to be coming along nicely, got a call from the bridal store to say my dress has arrived :) However I seem to be losing a large amount of hair due to stress...

Had an account hack scare in WoW last month, Blizz have fixed it all up for me, but now im hooked again... Playing far to much when I should be working on wedding stuff.

Our Indoor Football team is doing well again, currently 2nd on the table, hard game tonight tho...

Armageddon

2010-03-27T16:13:00.001-07:00

James Kyson Lee - Ando from Heroes :-)

Lucky in Love, Rich in Friends

2010-03-21T13:04:00.000-07:00

'Bout time for an update.

It sure has been an interesting start to the year. Not that we can call it the start of the year anymore... Almost the 25th of March, which means almost 6months to go till the big day... *nerves*

If you've been checking in on me you may have seen my short (very short, one sentence type) entries from my phone. Then, you will know that I crashed the car that I bought less than six months ago, in a rather unfortunate 'out of no where' incident.

My future Mother in Law was lovely and lent me her car for a month or so, and workmates gave me lifts on the days I didn't have the car, how lucky am I to have such caring people around me? Its hard to remember those people and the things they do for you when you are surrounded by your own head space of depression, worry and 'bad luck', even though its when you are in those moments that these people truly shine. My fiance had to keep reminding me that I don't have bad luck at all, and to look at all the wonderful people, things and love I had around me. He is of course correct and I am thankful for him and those people/things :D

The good news is that the finance/insurance is finally sorted and I now have a new car. Its older and an automatic (ewwwww) but I think that it is possibly a cooler car. Dark blue '94 Honda Ascot, its quite the fancy, in '94 it was possibly one of the fanciest cars on the market.... Its been well looked after and has only done 97,000 ks!

Also in these early months I had an eyesight scare. I went into the AA to renew my drivers licence only to be sent to an optometrist as I failed the eyesight portion. There were 2 things that alarmed the optometrist, one being that after my last eye test (about 3 years ago) where it was discovered I had a mild astigmatism and nothing else, this time my eyes had drastically deteriorated and I am also quite short sighted, the cost of new glasses and the fact that I now have to wear them for driving aside, the rate of deterioration is alarming. On top of that the optometrist found a scar on the back of one of my eyes. Booked into a specialist I was left for 2 weeks worrying about glaucoma's and the like. All is fine tho, the scar or whatever it once was is now benign.

Due to the expensive year that has been so far and the fact that it will continue to be so with the wedding coming up we have had to make sacrifices. We have cancelled our WoW subscription for now, renewed our rental lease for a year (we cant afford the time or money involved in finding a new house) and I am about to turn down an offer to join and outdoor soccer league (for the same reasons above). But there is some good news on the money front, as of 2moro I will have paid off my GE account :)

Other bright news for the near future; this weekend the geek convention Armageddon is in town, the fiance and I are taking his StarWars mad 7 yr old nephew for the first time, so it should be fun :) We will possibly buy him his first comic book.... :D I do love converting people to the dark side... Easter weekend is coming, Fiance and I are staying a night in the always relaxing Hanmer Springs.

Also, the indoor soccer team is on the up again, we thumped a team last week 16-1, makes a hell of a difference when we have our striker girl on board.

Wedding updates.... Going well and to plan time wise

- Have finalised maids and men.

- The theme of Black and White Gothic Victorian is coming together well in our heads.

- Venue, Caterer, Photographer and Celebrant have been booked.

- My dress has been ordered and will be here June 11th

- Meeting with a dress/corset/hat maker on Thurs to discuss the bridesmaids outfits/my hat.

- Taking the boys to Wilkins on April 10th to try out suits.

- Starting to think about hens weekend activities.

That's it for now, want to know more? Just ask :P

BFC

2010-03-16T12:08:00.001-07:00

Thats right, got my new car, its huge!

The good thing about being a receptionist.

2010-02-28T15:04:00.001-08:00

Yes there is a huge tv on the wall, yes on it is the gold medal ice hockey match, yes CANADA WON!

Cricket?

2010-02-28T12:11:00.001-08:00

A few years ago there is no possibility this could have ever happened. But here I am, at my first cricket game... 20/20 Australia vs New Zealand, and I actually enjoyed it...

Irony.

2010-01-30T15:55:00.001-08:00

Yes that sticker says L2Drive...

A year gone by

2009-12-20T13:14:00.000-08:00

Seeing as the year is almost up and time is short during the silly season I thought Id address the year reflection now…

When I think of the year just been, it is hard to separate it from the 3 years previous as a journey I have been on. Looking at the 3/4 years gone by I can see many changes that I have been through, some small, some so completely drastic that thinking of it now its quite scary.

Compared to 21yr old Me the 25 yr edition is physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually a very different person. (And in a brief flit to a 17yr version, I don’t think the 2 would recognise each other) Seriously I was thinking about it yesterday and it made me feel friggin old. We had a family Christmas do, my little cousin Jess was there and she is an almost exact replica of my 10yr old self, 2 more of my cousins are pregnant which prompted one of my uncles to rub my stomach and ask when mines coming... a good mate asked me the same question this week and the mans family are making not so subtle hints, even a work colleague mentioned that this time next year id be on maternity leave... all were met with the same response "let me get the friggin wedding out of the way first"

I’ve finally come to terms with the fact that I am not where I wanted to be at this age. Coinciding with that I think I may have finally found me, breakdowns are less frequent, and...

I’ve learnt that I cant make everyone happy, sometimes you do need to put yourself first, live a little, drugs aren’t the epitome of evil, be open and honest with all, even if that means letting your grandmother be friends with you on facebook, move on, grow up, its probably not your fault, some people will never forgive you, that’s their issue not yours, you can't spend your whole life feeling guilty, love is a very complicated and layered thing, some people just will never like you, smile and nod, make time for yourself, spend time with those you care about, don’t worry about telling someone you need some time alone, take joy in the little things, and always wear your seat belt.

The fact that it has taken me this long to learn all these things pisses me off, the fact that in my 25th year everything finally makes sense is a relief. The knowledge that when I’m 30 ill think differently again makes me smile rather than frown. I think I can finally call myself an adult.

Have an awesome Christmas, drink and be merry :)

Christmas.

2009-12-16T13:32:00.001-08:00

Man am I sick of it. Looking forward to running away from work for 2 weeks on Christmas eve.

Engagement Party!

2009-12-06T14:40:00.001-08:00

The nicest my nails/hand has ever looked. Had my nails done to complement my beautiful ring. The engagement party was on Saturday and went off without a hitch. Everyone was well fed and merry, Christchurch put on a pearler for us.

Attack of the Brightly coloured santas

2009-11-26T03:27:00.001-08:00

This is a picture of only one wall of colour, before its even complete. For 2 months each year we are inundated with they colourful works of the children/grandchildren of the staff throughout the country. The pictures (now complete) total around 5hundy and are pasted floor to ceiling over 4 walls of the reception area. It is a terrifying ordeal.

Sorry that I have been lax in the type, been busy window shopping online for wedding stuff lol. Speaking of which, our engagement party is finally happening next weekend. That should be quite the exciting ordeal. I am a little nervous about the whole centre of attention thing tho.

We won our first game in ages at Soccer the other night. It has been hard without our strikers. But I have started playing midfield now. No, I still haven't scored a goal, but I get closer with every game :D

My future sister in law had her baby last week, hes a cute little tyke, they have named him Connor. For some reason this gives my fiance range to make Highlander jokes. Also with the spring air, My Mums horses have had a foal each. They are the cutest things. I have been trying to get out to the property once a week to see them.

That's all for now, Ill try to remember to post next week :P

And the planning begins...

2009-10-08T01:21:00.000-07:00

Well, <- this is where we are getting married. The dates been set and the venue has been booked and paid for. Its all very exciting and it means we can start other plans. The venue is The Old Stone House, its a charming historical building in Cashmere, Christchurch. My Aunt got married there years ago, and it was beautiful. It is the perfect venue for us, as we can have the ceremony in their picturesque gardens and the reception inside. We can use whatever caterers etc that we like and are not bound to buy beverages from the venue. Roll on Sat 25th Sep 2010 :D

Other than that we have decided on our color scheme, black and white. Decided to only have one brides maid and groomsman. Designed an invite for and a date for our engagement party. And Ive started looking at dresses.... I never anticipated that it would be this much fun :)

Best Weekend Ever!

2009-10-01T00:54:00.000-07:00

So to celebrate our 2 year anniversary I took my man on a surprise trip to Wanaka. We both took the Friday off work and drove down in our new car.

The car by the way is awesome, really economical and a joy to drive. I think I'm getting an awesome usb car stereo for Christmas, so very excited :)

We arrived at our hotel the Oakridge Resort and checked into our room. It was small, and the bed was huge! It was really nice and swanky with heated tiles in the bathroom. The only disappointment would be that the window was facing the wrong way for any scenery :(

I was informed that I was not to get my anniversary pressie til later that evening. So we went out to dinner. We both are quite big fans of Mexican so went to a restaurant called Amigoes. Being a Friday night and having not booked we were told that there would be an hour wait. As we were on holiday we said that was fine and went for a nice night time stroll along the lake. When we got back to the restaurant our table was set and waiting for us, the service was superb and food delicious. If you are ever in Wanaka you should totally go there. But maybe you should look at making a booking first :)

When back at the hotel I went to the bathroom and when I came out there was a large parcel on the bed. Perplexing for awhile as to how he would've fit that large box in our luggage without me noticing he demanded I sit down and read the card first. The card consisted of his usual cheesy romantic and humorous poetry. The last line being "but only if you will be my wife?" at first I thought he was just saying it, but then a ring was produced, not too dissimilar to the one pictured. And now my man is my fiance and I feel the luckiest woman in the world. The ring is nothing like the ones I have pointed out. But that almost makes it more special. He picked it out all by himself and actually put some thought into it :D

In the morning we had a delicious cooked breakfast at Kai Whakapai followed by a beautiful walk around the lake. Apparently it was raining at home, but the weather in Wanaka was perfect, we even got sunburned. After hanging out at Puzzling World for a couple of hours we went back to the hotel to soak in the hot pools. We finished our day at the Paradiso cinema. This has got to be one of the most unique and greatest "cinematic adventures" (Dane Cook) that I have ever experienced. We turned up and had delicious pizza for dinner, sat in a uber comfy couch to watch Inglorious Basterds and we could actually here the projector ticking over, very old school and awesome. We were even given an intermission, where we ate ice cream that was made on site!

Sunday we had a beautiful drive home, I am totally over the moon :D

2years

2009-09-24T03:28:00.000-07:00

Just a few things, 2moro is my 2 year anniversary with my man, that went crazy fast. I'm taking him on a surprise trip to Wanaka for the weekend, very excited :) Will be driving our new car, that he doesn't know I've bought yet hehe. To tired to work on projects tonight, plus I have to pack so that all for this Thurs. Nite all.

E's mobile blog

2009-09-18T19:49:00.001-07:00

So totally awesome. Got myself a new phone 'Sony Ericsson W580i' and on it I can send pics straight to blogger. You have to ignore my ugly mug, its just that that was the first photo I took. looking forward to posting random stuff that I see :D

Demon Kitties

2009-09-17T01:51:00.001-07:00

That's right, its finally here, needs some tweaking for next week tho. But at least its up and getting there. You can check out Teh Demon Kitties HERE.

While I'm at it the Vampire blog is building up too... LINK

Resign, Again...

2009-08-21T20:40:00.000-07:00

^ Hilarious.

Wow, 2 entries in as many days... Don't expect this to be a common occurrence.

I arrived at my weekend job today to an envelope of "mistakes" (3weeks after the fact). After looking at them and seeing that they were nothing, realising that I had fixed worse mistakes made by the "supervisor", and seeing my new roster, I promptly rang my partner and then typed up my resignation. It is apparent to me that my suspicions were correct and they are trying to push me out.

I do not see resigning as being weak in this instance but more acknowledging that I am better than that.

Good news is now I have more time for my man and my projects :)

After the week from hell.

2009-08-20T03:26:00.000-07:00

I'm only just starting to pull myself together after the week from hell that I had a fortnight ago.

In light tho, now that I look at it, it could have been worse. When I stated to my Mum that I had had a week from Hell she just replied with "Well your Man hasn't left you has he?" Shes right.

But why was my week so terrible? Well firstly I was already in a down rut. Over stress at work, tired, annoyed at my not moving anywhere, see my previous post for the background. But the things in life that stress me most are money, work and men. Luckily there are no men problems atm. I am being blissfully unaware of any man that may be attracted in me other than my partner. Its simple and nice that way :)

On the money and work front however.... arrggghhhh!

Somehow I had managed to slam my seat belt in the door of my car. Easy enough to do I suppose. But annoyingly part of the plastic bit broke off in the door and what would you know, now my door cant open... Bah! So on Monday I drop the car in at the panel beaters.

Also on Monday I get a call from my weekend job telling me that I have been making mistakes. They will not however tell me what these mistakes are. "How can I fix them, or look out for them if I do not know what I am doing wrong?" I am still waiting to hear what these so called mistakes are, as far as I am aware, they are non-existent.

One Wednesday I get a letter from my weekday job telling me that they are upset with the way I am approaching some tasks, and that I am to have a meeting on Friday afternoon. Great! I ball my eyes out on the way to the panel beaters to pick up the car, they stab me with $475 (was going to be $675!) Insane "This is a whole weeks wages" I say as I enter my pin into the machine. I kinda feel sorry for the guy, cos he probably thinks that I was bawling over that. Sure I was upset about it, but I could not get any worse than I already was.

On Friday, after days of stressing, I have this 'meeting', which was really a pain in the arse, I wasn't really in trouble at all, they just wanted to intimidate me and make it a formal affair , when it could have just been a casual chat about some new things that they want me to do now.

Anyway, I'm slowly pulling myself back together, I've stepped my job hunt a little and Ive started a new project Eternal-E (btw 'Slime' is mine, please don't steal it).

Oh well to a bed I must go, to sleep, perchance to dream.

Im not Shakespeare, But I do say pretty much the same thing...

2009-07-19T02:09:00.000-07:00

That of course, is utter crock, just something I heard on Comedy Central today, that plus the stick figure Hamlet that you can find HERE, all ties in with the procrastination thing...

Alas I lack the money and the motivation to do what I want with my life. What I do now is certainly not what I want to spend the rest of my days doing, I know I'm better than this, and I know I will never win the lotto :(

You see I seem to have the most crushingly bad luck, (I would say I never win anything, but the fact that I won a chocolate bar 2 days ago, contradicts that statement). Every time I seem to be getting somewhere in life, IE. the amazing pace that I am managing to pay off my debts ATM, something happens... I have 2 cars. This in itself is not very good economically, that coupled with the fact that I am continuously having to fix them is insane. I have decided that in the long run it would be best to trade both vehicles in for a new one. This is something that I wish to do by the end of the month... What have I done to move towards this? Other than browse the vehicle listings? Nothing! *shakes head at own pityfulness* So 2Moro I must remember to email the car yards in town, and ask what they can offer me... fingers crossed that goes to plan.

When my partner and I moved into our flat together we had the idea of saving up enough money for a deposit on a house. Unfortunately with the GEC and pay freezes any money that we could have potentially put aside is going on the inflated cost of living. I work 7days a week so that we can actually progress in this life rather than going backwards. Much to my partners disgust he has noticed himself developing into a little house husband of sorts... But I love him for it, I know he only does it to make things a little easier for me.

Ive been getting rather depressed with it all, I'm sick of being in a dead end job, with lack of appreciation, and movements up the ranks or the like. I am actually contemplating going back to retail, as at least there is that opportunity... I guess a change is what I need, my workplace is very depressing ATM and some of my closest colleagues will be leaving in the next month :(

I have so many plans of what I want to do, but lack the time, ways, means, motivation and even knowledge of how to get it all off the ground. They range from business ventures big and small to personal improvement. I just always feel like I'm waiting for something to happen to give me that head start....

Website/Web comic- that's just a matter of time and enthusiasm. Every time I go to work on it something seems to go wrong, so I spend a good hour fixing it, and then I feel un-enthused. I have a few hand drawn of the comic that need scanning and posting up, although that seems like a small thing, I still need to make a page that will work for that browsing wise, I'm still not entirely sure how to do that, or how I want to do it. Still a beginner on this sort of thing.

Oh well more on this another time, E

Well its about time....

2009-06-14T03:27:00.000-07:00

That's right, the procrastination bug has bitten again...

So here I am finally typing an update. For some reason working up the effort and energy to type up a blog or work on my website these days. There are a few things I can poke my finger at to blame, just cos that's what procrastinators do. One is that I work 7days a week at the moment, so the thought of using my spare time to 'work' is crushing. Plus I usually put Thursday nights aside to work on that stuff. For the last few months those Thursday nights have been poached by a friend who needs to hang out. I think however she has found her feet again, and I can now get back on track. Thing is, I had last Thursday all to myself, and all I wanted to do is play demo games and blob. I should really be taking advantage of the time I have at work on the weekends to do this blog thing...

I apologise for the following format, its just that I don't want to miss anything out.

Exercise - Yeah that's right, other than climbing the stairs at home or work, other than indoor soccer once a week. I bought myself Wiifit for my Birthday (I will address the age thing later in the post), and I am astounded at the amazing technology involved in the device (Ill do an actual review of if on my Review sight). The reason? I am sick of being fat. I have always been voluptuous, but lately my stomach size has been concerning me, and making me more self conscious than usual. The Wii has even told me that I am morbidly obese (only a very slight exaggeration of words there). So I have been making sure I do half an hour of aerobic exercise on it a day. After as week, I think that maybe I see a small change, Ill keep you updated on that one.

Birthday - Oh yay, 25! (said sarcastically) I usually have little quarter life crises around every bday, but this time its a real quarter century crises. I was supposed to be married by now with at least one child on the way... Damn life and the expectations we put on our selves. I was also supposed to be well on my way to becoming a famous film director, hmmmmm I haven't even made anything since Uni. So in a bid to get this overdue life on track I have of course taken on too many tasks and goals. I am working 2 jobs (seven days a week) in order to pay off my debts and actually make a little leeway during this GEC. That's going well, and at the rate I am going I should be in a good place come Christmas next year :) Somehow by that time I also have to; buy my macbook and camcorder, finish my screen play, and at least start filming my first movie, My man and I wish to be in our own house by then, hopefully with at least engagement ring, and we want to have a nice big new shiny TV. That's a lot to get done in a year and a half, especially now that I have taken on the role of unpaid marketing manager for my mans family business...

Cat/Dog situation - The Dog it appears is hopelessly in love with the Cat, much to her disgust. She still rules the roost tho, and he knows it. This Dog is a convicted cat killer, yet he lets her eat his food and drink from is bowl... We thought that maybe this is because he is getting old, 10yrs for a Staffy is impressive. He is definitely no longer the guard dog he once was, don't say it too loudly, but I think hes losing his hearing. No longer does he start barking when someone walks past our gate, or even come through it, not until they knock on the door does he notice... Plus he seems to be going off at ghosts lately... However he did shoot off after the neighbours cat last week, so not all is lost.

Education - I want some day to own a store/Internet cafe, a restaurant, a bar, and maybe even a clothing line. I know that these are lofty dreams, but I really really want them. I figure to help these things along the way I should to a management/business course part time via correspondence. This would mean even less me time... But I am certain it would be rewarding. And what the hey, what another couple of grand on a already large student loan? It is interest free... We will be looking at the beginning of the year intake next year. Which means I have to get my website and my mans family business website made and at a state that I only have to update them occasionally by New years... Now that's a time line... Especially for a procrastinator like me... Who is only really learning the website thing... Maybe I should start scheduling my time...

Gaming - The Man and I have been WoWing a little, we are now level 46 and successfully 2mand Scarlet Monastery last week. Also He bought me Guitar Hero World Tour (the band edition) for my Bday, when I have the time, I'm loving it :P

Mental health - It is my blessing and my curse that I put others above myself, all the time. As a result of this, the overwork, and my general mental un-stableness, I have been depressed for the last month. I do like that I am able to talk about it so matter of factly on this medium, something that I can only really do with a few men in my life. The Man, thinks that he has failed at making me happy, or that's what he says anyway, I am sure tho that he understands that that really is not the case at all. I am incredibly happy with him and everything he does for me, this is just different.

Holiday - On the note of being extactic with him, we went to Australia's Gold Coast in April. Despite the miserable weather (that is very uncharacteristic) we had a wonderful time, visiting all the theme parks, Movie World and White Water world being by far our favorites. It was exactly what we needed for our relationship and our bodies needed that holiday too.

Soccer - Last time I typed I mentioned reaching the final. Well we lost, really badly. Now we are sitting near the bottom of the table for this season. Its ok, we can make up for it again next season I suppose... I hope anyway. Now if only my damned ankle will come right.

Television - In closing, I hate living in NZ! Season 2 of True Blood started tonight in America, who knows how long it will be for us to get it. Season 1 only just finished. I really love it, possibly cos I lurvvveee vampires.... I was thinking the other day, if I was one Id be able to do all the things I want to do in my life easy, cos Id have forever to do it, wouldn't matter if I was a procrastination. If you haven't checked out True Blood, you should, and also if you haven't seen the website, go check it out at www.hbo.com/trueblood there are some really cool things there, including mock companies and advertising, or is it real?

We meet again nemesis...

2009-03-18T18:48:00.000-07:00

Daphne is an awesome character in Heroes, but that is not my reasoning for this title...

We made the final! (indoor soccer), and we will be playing our arch rival team, which includes my nemesis, Steam Roller... I'm excited and nervous, all at the same time, not to mention concerned for my personal safety. Last time we played them, he did not play due to the fact that he was concerned that he may hurt me again... The time before that, concussion, the time before that, elbow in the jaw.... Understand my concern then you will *Yoda giggle*

Reaching the final is a big thing for us, The team currently known as Anonymous (previously Kerplunk) has played out much like a Disney movie. We lost our first ever game, 24-0... So bad were we at the sport that the organisers used to always make us play the new teams, so that they felt good. Slowly we got better, learnt to play as a team, increased our ball skills so that last season we made the semi final (which we lost to our arch rivals). Then, after playing for a year and a half, a role reversal, we won a game 19-1, we then won a semi-final 8-4. And now we play our first final on Sunday, historically not a good day for us to play sports, but we will play a final none the less, and we are ecstatic.

I know that it has been awhile since I have typed, It seems that if I was doing the once a month thing that I skipped Feb by accident. I could blame an array of things but the truth is, I was just bit by the procrastination bug, again.... I was going to write one up in Feb, titled 'It was a trip that has killed relationships' (more on that later) and within it link the first episode of 'Teh Demon Kitties' comic, and show the updated web page. But alas. That is not to say that I haven't been working on such things, if you check out the site, it is slightly different... But I have done a lot of work offline for it, planing, drawing, writing. There are in fact 6 complete 'Demon Kitties' strips, I just need to scan and upload them. Fear not, behind the scenes the mass looms. Or should I say, fear, fear lots.

So, the trip that kills relationships, or at least has, one... Is one that is travelling down south to visit family. My previous relationship showed its rips and thorns on this trip. Made me lack faith in the durability of the relationship, and caused my others to wander. That's not to say that this was the one and only thing that ruined the relationship, I know that I should have tried harder and that a lot of it is my fault. But during this trip I saw things in that man that I didn't like. And when your stuck in a car with someone for that long, it feels unbearable. But anyway the point of this we rant is that I braved it, tried it again with my current man. And it couldn't have gone better :) We had a ball, and it may have been exactly what we needed. Some time together with out distractions.

Other updates;

Leila and Thorne - Still both alive, still annoying each other. He is now allowed upstairs, much to her disgust, and it can be very annoying when it comes to bed time... They are seriously like young siblings. We have thought up some interesting strips for the comic involving them both.

WoW - My man has come to quite enjoy it, sacrificing around 4 hours a week to play it with me atm. We are now lvl 35, and he still find it lacks challenge. I do think that the mobs are easier than they used to be...

Mental Health - Well, due to my own fault, I should know better by now, added with the stresses of work atm. I had another breakdown last night. I think I have pushed parts of me too hard and could be on the verge of a disaster. Ive pulled out the DucTape and am trying to mend it all quickly. Hopefully I am not too late. The well over-due holiday in April should help.

That's right off to Surfers Paradise in QLD Australia for 12nights, just me and my man :D

The Silly Season

2009-01-18T12:48:00.000-08:00

I think that this year I finally know the true meaning of that title. The holidays are over, and OMG I sooooo need a holiday...

I had a little over a week off during this time, but that time was spent entertaining, cooking and cleaning. Is that really a holiday?
But okay, I'm a little strange, I actually enjoy the cooking, I enjoy having the friends and/or family over and playing hostess. And I do it well (if I do say so myself lol), at least I think I do, I get lots of compliments anyway.

Another good thing about it was spending some much needed time with my man. I got him the new Red Alert for Christmas, so he needed a PC to run it. So off we went to Dragon PC and got them to make up a nice new minimum spec for him. Hes happy, it does what he needs it to do. It also means that he can play WoW with me finally. So we have a nice little pair going on, he being a rather n00by human mage, and me healing his arse and tanking with a Drunei Shaman. Lvl 20 currently and he just starting to really get in it. It is a whole heap of fun.

But here I am on a Monday morn at work, and its the last place I want to be. The weekend wasn't long enough to get rid of the mind space I'm in after the horrid week that was last week. I have said Ill give my year here, so roll on those Easter Holidays (we are off to the gold coast) and when I get back we shall start the new job hunt. It just seems so far away, and I am so very depressed with the whole work thing today.

Ive been bowled over by a steam roller and have whiplash...

2008-12-08T23:05:00.000-08:00

Seriously I have and do...
Ok maybe not quite a steam roller but I do have whiplash and mild concussion.

So you know how we lost our semi, well we had our revenge match last night. We were amped and ready for a win, we played well. But still lost :( 5-3 not to bad we think.

But remember the elbow in the jaw indecent, the same guy bowled me over. He was lumbering up the field like the large oaf he is. I went in for the tackle, and instead of dribbling around me, he plowed right into me. My last thought was o frick, hes not stopping! Then I was on my back on the ground in a whole heap o pain. When I came to, I was cursing something cronic, why wont this dude leave me alone? Im only half his friggin size!

At the end of the game he shook my hand and said "Ill leave you alone one day" Bah, im sure you will, maybe when youve hospitalised me? Bloody hell im sore. Next game against them shall be interesting none the less.

The incedent does not help with all the mum figures at work who are trying to get me to give up the game. Lol they dont understand that the brutality is all part of the fun :) The concussion effects had worn off by late arvo today, but now ive got really bad whiplash. Neck so stiff :(

The exorcism of the mes seems to be working I think. I am constantly wary of everything I do, say, think or feel atm. I do not want to loose all control again. I need to feel in a stable place, I need to get this life on track without all the little upsets. Without the exes admitting to their repressed feelings and the like.

The BF and I seem to be settling in together, learning to compromise to the others wants and needs, ie. not staying up til my usuall midnite. And convincing him to eat less junk. We are less stressed now, and getting used to having the other around so much. Its actually quite nice :)

Had the house warming over the weekend. It went swimmingly, caught up with heaps of people that I hadnt seen in ages. Played much backyard soccer, volleyball, cricket and badminton. There were no clashes among different groups of friends, even the 2 sets of parents seemed to get along. The parents were our major concern as they had not yet met. The pets too behaved, both are still alive and well. Dog even leaves Leila (demon kitty) alone if shes within a metre.

All seems well I spose :) Except for before silly season craziness at work.

Must be due for the great fall...

This is the last place I ever expected to be...

2008-11-26T23:45:00.000-08:00

Back where it all started...

Yes, Im sitting here at my old job taking orders for cab rides. Its weird, and no matter how shocked everyone around me is, there is no one more shocked than myself.

I got an surprising email from the old boss last week, pretty much asking that if after 8months of Cab freedom, I would like to come back and help out for the week. I looked at the email, looked away, looked back, rubbed my eyes, looked again, and then erupted into laughter. This was priceless, the sort of feeling like, "Lol, they still cant handle it without me".

So after some talking to respected friends, workmates and ofcourse my man, I entered into negotiations with said old boss. He was desperate enough to ask me, so I could push him a little. Didnt want to scare him off tho, extra dosh before Christmas is a godsend, plus its easy money ;)

There was no way I was going to miss out on this chance to rub it in his face....

Its terrifying how quickly it all comes back, the accounts the short codes, the system. 15mins and I was swinging again. Hey look im even back to the old typing the blog at work, lol for old time sakes.

So soccer, well :( We lost that dradded semi, I got a bloody elbow in the jaw, still hurts a little. It was a really rough game, but if we had played the whole game like the 2nd half we wouldve kicked arse... Halftime score was 6-1 to them, full time was 7-6... This week we were real fired up, no way we were gonna lose. So play hard we shall and hopefully get to the semis again. Only thing is that the summer season is a whole heap harder. As regular soccer players are in off season and join up in the teams. I think our team is the only one that doesnt have pro ring-ins lol.

The mes are sorted I think. Little miss naughty is tied up, happy with her lot in life. Im kinda exorcising her. Its risky business, but with my mans help, we are getting there. With the breakdowns and the Gollum I know its hard on him, deffinatley lucky that he sticks around :)

"Thats one confirmed death" The man said to me the other day causing my very alarmed "What?!" Apparently teh demon kitty has been hunting birds in her very limited time outdoors. Well atleast she hasnt bringing them in. Shes loving the house, but wishes she could go out more. Unfortunatley that is the dogs domain for now. Until he stops the escaping the property, and looking at her like a potluck dinner, she will remain indoors.

Black Guy vs Old Guy

2008-11-04T20:57:00.000-08:00

Black Guy wins?

In this age old battle, one man fights against oppression, gathering his army from all corners of his country to meet his oldest foe. They glared at each other and flung their battle axes far and wide. The foe bought out his secret weapon, the Harlot, many were wooed at first by her charms. But on that last day of battle, it seemed it would go on forever, thunder and lighting clapped around them, warriors fell on both sides, only one man could win, only one man could raise his blue flag high. And it was the minority that won, the colored man with the Muslim name, Obama the new president elect of the USA. A new era is born. Lol, that was a terrible analogy.

Anyway, I'm not much into my politics or elections. Seriously, I'm even not considering voting in my own country this year. But I couldn't help but be drawn into all the hype of the American election this time round. I think its due to just that, the fact that the media got so worked up, that this one was different. All the same its all over for now. And we shall watch Americas new president with great anticipation.

Demon Kitty/Dog update: Both are still alive. Being Guy Fawkes we have had hooligans roaming the neighborhood with fireworks. This never bodes well with pets. The Dog (Thorne) ran away. So once I got him back home I had to lock him inside. Much to Leila's disgust "I must be confined to only the upper floor? Are you mad?" I am jealous of their fur coats atm. It is unseasonably cold, we had a freaking frost this morning.

I seem to be keeping a rein on the troublesome me. As I am actually thinking about things rather than acting on impulse, which is one of her worse traights. So far her selected victim is unbeknown of her, and I think I have the ability to lock her away if she gets to out of control. This is all providing that she still is mostly animal like and has not figured out the thought patterns of other mes yet. If that was the case, I could currently be in a false sense of sercurity. Hmmm sorry for ranting, I find it easier to type this crap out. I do not think that not seeing my Man much lately is helping. It is odd that after moving in with each other we seem to see each other less...

They = The Right Wing Conspiracy

2008-10-31T22:18:00.000-07:00

Been a crazy few weeks, with the packing and the moving. Its always such an expensive and long process. But as I sit here typing, all I have left to is put posters up :) Huzzah! Such a good feeling.
This move was big and important, I'm still nervous about how it will all turn out, but its too late now, im in, and we have a year lease. Why was it big? Well, My bf and I have moved in together. Its the first time Ive ever lived with a guy without flatmates. Its just us, the cat and the dog... That's another thing to be nervous about. But so far both pets are alive. No drama to report at all actually :)Its quite exciting, the house is the biggest house I have ever lived in, plus we have a huge lawn and a deck :D And I have full speed internet, all to myself. hehe

Certain situations, series of events and even people, bring out certain mees. I have had them fully under control (so I thought anyway) until about a week or so ago. I guess that the stress of moving etc. made the calm in control me vulnerable to the others. I have started noticing parts of some of them emerging. This isn't entirely bad, it means that I am here typing, which is good. It also means that I have been doing an awesome job of keeping house, with all the setting up, cooking and cleaning, and I am actually enjoying it. However, I do not have the ability to let out only some parts of some persona's yet, I am not strong enough. I let my guard down for one bit and all of a sudden all of the parts of me are trying to gain control of my entity. One in particular effects other people, and I know that she has already picked a victim, and is trying to manipulate the in control persona to her will. I guess that if I know that that is going on, then I have made some progress. The trick now is to stay in control and build back the walls before its to late. A year ago I don't think I would have been able to do that. But I think I can now. Do or do not, there is no try.

Things that are exciting atm; Heroes is back! (even if NZ is like 7 episodes behind). Looking at returning to my adventures in Azeroth. We will be having an awesome house warming soon. And our soccer tema is second on the table :D

Back to Reality...

2008-08-28T00:27:00.000-07:00

Well, they are over, the Olympics that is. And the Kiwis didn't have that bad of a haul after all; 3 gold, 1 silver & 5 bronze. My prediction was close, not close enough, but not far enough off for me to be filled with patriotism for my little country. But I am happy for our sports people all the same.

Well, they (they being the ever elusive stuck up people who tell us how to run our lives, through very subtle ways) said that the Olympics were just the distraction we needed. To an extent they were correct, The news stopped telling us the bad stuff and started concentrating on the sports, 24/7 for 16days, thats all it was, except for the occasional mention of some war in Georgia. Some how that vanished the same time the Olympics did....

And as soon as David Beckham kicked that soccer ball into the arms of an overjoyed volunteer, it all came flooding back...literally

Monday morning at work, everyone was tired and depressed, whining all over again about the worst winter we have had in ages, how they haven't been able to dry their clothes outside for months, how its freakin cold and everything is flooded or damp. And with everyone in this cynical mood, they start remembering how poor they are, how everyones getting laid off, how their mortgage rate is increasing, how their minuscule pay rise doesn't cover the inflation in living costs, and in general how depressed they and all their friends, family and co-workers are.

And its been like this all week, instead of hearing about the mutant Phelps, lightning Bolt, Beijing fog, crazy heat and humidity, faked fireworks, lip syncing girls, Federer or anything else happening at the 2008 Olympics. We are hearing about the terrible flooding up north, the possible selling of kiwi bank, the dishonesty of Winston Peters, and the predictions of more rain, hail , sleet and price increases.

So did the Olympics distract? Thanks to the media yes, but unfortunately, not long enough.

On a brighter note, Disturbed are in Christchurch on the 12th of September, and we are going :D Loving their latest single...

Also looking forward to Metallicas new album :)

Victory and Defeat

2008-08-14T01:11:00.000-07:00

Its that time again, it happens once every 4 years, where people all of a sudden go sports crazy and become full of national pride. Yes its the Olympics. And for some reason, that makes your 24year old blogger feel old... I thought the handsome gent above was a bit of alright, then I discovered, he is 2 years younger than me :(

Annnnyyyyway.....

At work we were asked to put in a guess at medals that TeamNZ would win. I put in a 2gold,2silver,3bronze vote. Which many would veiw as unpatriotic. The bf however thinks I am being to generous... Guess we will see, but I am confident in my judgement of this one. Thinking there will be a lot of 4ths this year.

So, the victory? Soccer! OMG, my team has started winning games, we have moved up on tables, now a magnificent 2nd in our Monday tournament and a much improved 9th in our Wednesday! We are happy and playing better because of it.

Just a short one today, stupid headache and cold :(

R.I.P Milly

2008-07-12T01:30:00.000-07:00

It's been a crazy few months, and I am sorry for not writing since March. I will not list all my excuses, just state the main one... Milly.

Milly was one of the two demon kitties that resided with me, unfortunately, she is no more. It is the not wanting to talk about it that has meant my absence. But I have procrastinated and made excuses for far to long, and I am back to start with the dreaded post.

Milly's life was one of many ups and downs, she managed to squeeze a large amount of drama into her short 3years. She was born the runt of a litter of six, and never quite right because of it. Her head was slightly to big for the rest of her body, which caused her to be laughed at, as well as making her the favorite among visitors. Despite her slight retardness she was overall cute and love able. When young she would accidentally run into glass doors and windows, and charge past Leila when she was trying to attack. One of her most obvious traits, was that she refused to clean... her white belly was usually a beige sort of color, except when she had just had a bath, or Leila plucked up the courage to clean her.

Milly disappeared when she was just a year old. We hunted all around the block multiple times, but to no avail. It had been 8 days when we had given up hope, and Leila was getting used to soaking up all the attention, when she appeared at the cat door, filthy and battered and covered in fleas. After we took her to the vet it was revealed that she must have been hit by a car, that she had a shattered pelvis and that her bladder and bowel functions would never come completely right. Instead of an expensive and complicated surgery, we put her on cage rest, well, we tried to. She had other ideas however, and would not remain still. When locked in the room with a window only a crack open (there is no way anything could fit through, my hand barely could) we woke up one morning to find her asleep in the chair beside the bed. This means she squeezed out of the window, in the cat door and climbed the stairs.... she was stubborn, but eventually came right. Even if she lost half her tail in the process.

But towards the end of April this year, things went backwards again, there was nothing we could do to help her, and she knew it was the end... I miss her to this day, so does Leila and those that knew her. There is a gap in our hearts for our poor tarded Milly, but she is in a better place now, where she can run happily with a full tail again.

Rock Review

2008-03-26T23:33:00.000-07:00

Well, Rock 2 Wellington review anyway...
So after a week of enjoying the strangely warm, sunny and not as windy as usual Wellington weather, and cursing those evil evil hills, we rocked on out to the main reason for our trip. Hooray for huge rock concert RCK2WGTN!

We painted our faces, the bf with the traditional White face with black star, and I with the much more subdued plain black star. Its amazing the comradeship the painted faces evoked among others of the painted face gild. Even if the white paint does mix with said bf's beard to create some sort of Plato looking statue man.... I did warn him that it would look silly, I think he was the only bearded Paul Stanley out there, possibly the only bearded KISS member.... Ohwell, he had fun, just needed a lot of help removing said paint after 7 hours of rocking out.

But, I am getting ahead of myself. Many hooted and hollered at us as we walked down the Terrace towards the Westpac Stadium on the warm easter Saturday evening, this only intensified the closer we got to our destination. With children, sticking out their tongues in Gene Simmons style while loitering outside the government buildings, and then adults alike at the gates to the stadium.

Once inside we were pleasantly surprised that lines to the rest rooms were minimal (as we had been drinking most of the week) and that there was plenty on sitting room in the pit for the in between acts. We were greeted by lengthy guitar solos by apparently the best unsigned solo guitarists in NZ, some where good, some not so much, but it did do well to set the scene and keep us entertained.

The first act Lordi were really good and surprisingly well accepted for a band that is only recent on the more popular rock scene. I only knew one of their songs, and do not think many in the crowd knew more than two or maybe three. The stage and costuming was spectacular as expected, Weta can do no wrong.

After half an hour of Sonic Altar the crowd started to merge forward for what has been widely accepted as the best performance of the weekend, the man himself, Alice Cooper. The bf believes that this could be because of his less 'drugfucked' life. He still appeared in his prime, his performance came off as a musical, full of drama and impressive acting, props included, a baby, a straight jacket, a chick and other such things that should be tied in. He sang all of his hits (except Frankenstein, which the bf has only stopped moaning about due to the fact he was driving me mad). I was in awe, as was most of the crowd.

After such an amazing performance, the NZ filler band was forgettable, and even the headline act KISS was a bit of a let down. The performance, light show and fireworks were awesome... but the music just wasn't right. They started with a song that I only knew from watching C4 that day, then followed to play music that most of the audience didn't know, they seemed disappointed that the crowd wasn't warming as they should normally, but honestly what did they expect. I had been hanging out for Strutter all week, but alas no :( Even Simmons trademark blood vomit went without much cheer. It wasn't till their encore that they attempted to regain a standing. They played 2 of their biggest hits, then left us to make our ways back up those terrible hills to our place of stay.

After sleeping all day we got ready for day 2. With much more toned down outfits, we walked on down again. The crowd was much bigger and quite different. The Valves kicked off the night. They are always a good thing, pity that they were way off on a side stage. They were followed by Poison, who were doing their cowboy thing, of course. Bret Michaels seemed genuinely happy to be there, more so than any of the other acts, he said thank you heaps. The whole band were impressive, especially seeing as the crowd only knew some of their stuff.

Sonic Altar had their second go at being background music, no one was really paying attention, I felt sorry for them in a way, but at the same jealous of this big opportunity they had been given. I only know 2 or 3 Whitesnake songs, but they were enjoyable, just not as much as Poison. I am actually somewhat surprised that they were given a better time slot. My God tho, David Coverdale is a dodge old English man! He complimented a young lady near the front on her "lovely bosom" and then proceeded to tell the man next to her to "get into it" Lol!

The Symphony of Screams were given the job of keeping the crowd entertained while Ozzy found his way to the stage. The excitement was high and people started pushing to the front. Screams set finished, and there was still no Ozzy. "Wheres Sharon?" I can imagine him saying backstage, "Where am I?", "Wellington" would come the reply. "Where in fucking Australia is that?" The bf and I were discussing the possible conversations going on back stage, and how much we would actually be able to understand, for the 10mins or so it took Ozzy to finally turn up. The crowd went wild, the loudest it had been all weekend. But Ozzy couldn't hear us, the screams and yells only got louder, still Ozzy was deaf to it "I cant hear you" says he. I partly wish I had a loud billowing voice so that I could yell in return "Turn your hearing aid on". It wasn't all bad tho, we could actually understand more than we thought we might, he sang good songs, even Bark at the Moon & Warpigs! We all forgave him mucking up the lyrics and us hearing the backing. We forgave his drugged stupor, from many parties past. The fireworks were spectacular. The 15min guitar solo was extensive, but hey Ozzy is an old man now, and needed a rest. I think the most disappointing was that Ozzy didn't seem to like the crowd, didn't seem like he wanted to be there. That rubs off on a crowd and ruins the buzz.

We were far to tired to attend the after party, so back up the hill we trekked.

So just to tie up a few loose ends...

While we were in Wellington, what does our soccer team do? Win a game! Grats to them sure, but it sure made us feel stink.

I arrived home, half expecting the kitties to ignore me. But no, quite the opposite, only now, 2weeks later have they started to lay off on all the love.

One of the bf's good mates, thought that all that time alone together would kill the relationship. I admit, I too had those doubts. However, quite the opposite occurred, I'm ecstatic about that :)

The reason I have taken so long to write this thing up happens to be that, my first day back home was also my first day at my new job. Its awesome, I'm learning lots of new stuff and everyone is being super nice. Got my first pay check today, and it will suffice :)

This post has gone on far to long, I shall leave it now.

Til next time, Eli :)

Freedom within my grasp.

2008-03-09T05:14:00.000-07:00

Here I am on my last shift, In 4 hours I will be free. Free from the constraints of shift work, rotational rosters, 12 hour shifts, 72 hour weeks, and evil night shifts.

I'm a mixture of feelings, excitement, fear, nervousness, anticipation. Being here is all Ive known for the last 2 years, actually having a life again, or the ability to have one, will take some getting used to.

When Google imaging 'Freedom' I came across something disturbing, but rather clever, Warning, content may offend. These animal activists really know how to hit those nerves, go for the shock factor, make you feel guilty.

Speaking of animals, the kitten from my neighbors, the one that caused interesting reactions from my cats, is no more. It is unfortunate that it wandered onto the road, as it is very busy. I do feel bad that I feel somewhat relived, as I can now have my door open without worrying that it will walk in and worry my cats, also I think it had fleas.... But it was rather cute.

My holiday draws ever closer.

Happy Happy Joy Joy

2008-02-22T02:01:00.000-08:00

Just a quick entry to say... Yay! I've got the new job part also now. Yup, thats right I heard today, and I am currently typing the resignation letter. This means, no more night shifts :) No more weekends :) I can now do sports, night courses join clubs and groups. I am soooooo excited. My first day is the 26th of March. Which means I have 2 weeks here then I have my holiday and I come back a fresh for the new job. How sweet is that? Alright I'll stop harping now.

Love is what's in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening presents and listen.

2008-02-21T00:04:00.000-08:00

I am not entirely sure that Soccer is supposed to look this good <-. At any rate, my team does not. We don't even make up for our lack of looks by being awesome, In fact I think that we are at the bottom of the table. Its crushing :(

My workmate and I were discussing forwarded emails today. And how annoying they can be. Especially the chain ones. However we decided that the ones that make you giggle or say "awwwww" should be forwarded. They made your day brighter, so why not pass that on to your friends etc. The title of the post comes from one such email. About a group of kids that were asked to say what they think love is. I'm sure that you've seen it or one like it before. But what this kid said really grabbed me. He has managed to look deep and capture so much without even realizing what he meant. At the same time hes passing a social observation. Anyway, I'm sure the event never even happened. Lol I shouldn't be cynical.

On a forum, that I share with old friends from high school, we have been discussing the differences between US Humor and UK Humour. In particular the "Office" and the "Office". Someone posted John Cleese's "Letter to America". I feel that it is amusing enough that all deserve to have a read. On the topic of the "Office" I went over to Big Fish the other day and downloaded the demo of the game. Which was rather enjoyable :).

So it was pay day on Wednesday, and I was all excited cos I was able to buy the tickets to that concert, and what do I find? That the floor tickets are all sold out :( , I'm so upset, I was quite looking forward to it, and I don't think that seated will be quite the same experience.

In other news, Ive been interviewing my arse off. Don't yah hate that smarmy feeling?

"Please use this M&M for breeding purposes."

2008-02-13T02:58:00.000-08:00

Bahahahaha, I'm in fits of giggles. Firstly because of this guys blog. And also because of this ^ picture, that I found when I Google image searched "all your base are belong to us cat" Lol :D

Sorry, I know Ive been a bit slack lately, but my work night shifts have been preoccupied with searching for a new job..... lol, thats probably quite immoral? But I think the boss knows that I'm unhappy with the lack of social life I get with this job. Had 3 interviews today, two of which I am feeling quite happy about. Ive found that its really good for the self confidence to send out C.V's, especially when you get heaps of interviews from them.

So this holiday coming up, we found out that the week we are up there, Smashing Pumpkins and Queens of the Stone age are also having a concert, and the standing tickets are only $99, we are soooooooooo there. Totally going to be the best holiday eva!

Short post today, Sorry.

Rock is Dead!

2008-01-29T08:38:00.001-08:00

Long live paper and scissors :P

<- Gene Simmons, still quite cool.....

Firstly, sorry for not posting last week, things are a little hectic here. Okay I know, thats no excuse, but hey I'm back :)

Secondly I am majorly excited :) I just bought the Bf and I airfares to Wellington. We are heading that way over Easter for a few reasons. One of those being that I haven't had any time off since June/July last year (I worked right through Christmas, including Christmas day). Another reason is because we are going to ROCK2WTN where we will get to see Kiss, Alice Cooper and much more Rock/Metal/80's goodness. Oh its gonna be great :) 10 hrs over 2days, in the pit of course.... I think that this will be one of those things that'll stick with me forever. Can you tell my excitement? Lol.

If your into that sort of thing, and especially KISS, you should totally check out this guys blog, honestly something that starts with "Ive got Gene Simmons blood on my hands" has to be gripping :)

Speaking of Gene Simmons, he makes a guest appearance in the latest Ugly Betty Episode, 'A Thousand Words By Friday'. I wont tell you the context because it would spoil it for you. Its a good show by the way, full of laughs and sweetness. And it has Freddy Rodriguez, who Ive developed quite a liking for. Lol.

Sticking to the musicish thing, I was sent a link to this video the other day, by someone whose taste in music, rarely lets me down.

Her talent is amazing, and even inspiring. There is a passion about her that is refreshing, I think I shall keep an eye on her.

Man am I loving blogger and the Interweb, I can link Vids up here, thats awesome :) The possibilities must be endless :P

On a final note for this entry, My neighbors in the front flat have recently got a kitten. Strangely it has attached itself to me, and likes to follow me around and come into my place. I thought that my Demon Kitties would be unimpressed. Leila attacked a cat wearing a funnel the other day.... However, she seems to have gone all paternal on the little one.... I anxiously watch this development...

I'm gonna make you a mix tape. You like Phil Collins?

2008-01-15T07:55:00.000-08:00

I've got two ears and a heart, don't I?

There is something oddly alluring and even kinda sexy about Tina Fey (yes I know I'm a chick, but there is nothing wrong with appreciating fineness).

I thought to myself a couple of weeks ago that I should really give that 30 Rock a go. I hit an obstacle almost immediately, when I discovered that TvLinks had been shut down long ago. So after searching for a bit then a little try and error, I discovered SideReel, it seems to be the best option for viewing this particular show. It gives you the option of formats and host sites, so you can choose what best suits you, love it.

Anyway, after 3 episodes I was hooked. Its quirky and brilliant, with all the right ingredients for the perfect sitcom recipe: Take one enduringly neurotic character, Place in a well greased suburban setting, Fold in a quirky neighbor, but leave some aside for a spin off series later, Cover with wealth and unreality, Sift in an attractive but unattainable love interest, Drizzle through bad canned laughter, In a separate bowl whip together some bad lyrics and a cheesy tune,Over bake in a hot oven of media publicity and speculation, Decorate with B grade celebrity cameos. Plus Alec Baldwin, I mean jeez its not a movie without a Baldwin, and here we have a TV series with one!

The whole moving on and creating a life that I require, Is heaps harder than it seems. I have had 2 conversations of late that come to mind. One was incredibly detrimental, all the progress I had made at making myself stronger, more in control, a better person, went out the window in the space of 3 minutes. I hated myself again, I wanted to end it all, the Gollum was in full swing. In short I felt insanely guilty for things that should be well and truly under the bridge. The other was just strange, me realizing that parts of me still linger, feelings and emotions remain, ones that I need to come to terms with.

In other news, I appear to have an interesting cat situation. Twice in the last 5 days I have arrived home to find feathers every where. I know the cat can climb in the window with bird in mouth, I have witnessed her accomplish this amazing feat. However, after searching absolutely everywhere and questioning the cat, I cannot find said bird(s). I am concerned that she may be devouring them, and that it may be detrimental to her health...

New Years Resolutions....

2008-01-08T08:11:00.000-08:00

Have an incredibly low success rate. But here I am trying to make one work.

Its a new year, I have a new residence, a new boyfriend and a new lease on life.

My New Years resolution? To get my plans and life on track, starting with my website and blog. I shall attempt to post every Tuesday, I believe if I set the time aside, it is accomplishable (I'm not sure that that is even a word...) Then, maybe, I'll start on the typically failed resolutions, eat better, go to church more, loose weight etc.

So much has changed in me and my life in the last six months. I moved out of a living situation that everyone bar myself saw as detrimental. Now that I'm out of it, I know where they were all coming from. I now live by myself, by myself I mean that I live with those two rascally kitties of mine (they are not to bad really) if it wasn't for them I would go mad from solitude.

The new boyfriend is for the first time in my life, not that in to computers, I think I actually out geek him, lol, its a new experience for me, and I'm actually enjoying normal people activities like walking the dog and playing social sports. Yeah sports, I know! The boyfriend and I co-captain a soccer team called Kerplunk, I play every Wednesday that I can escape work. We aren't very successful.

Work is one thing that I haven't changed yet, I guess I'm casually looking for alternative employment, but 60hr weeks don't really leave time for that. Its not as bad as it used to be, I guess I feel a little appreciated at the moment, I wont say that the pay rises haven't affected that.

If I ever bore you with detail and honesty I apologize, thats one of the steps in my new direction, honesty is incredibly important, without it you end up hurting yourself and those you care most for. Sorry to those that I stuffed around over the last few years, thank you to those who have forgiven me.

I diagnosed myself with a multiple personality disorder a couple of years ago, no I am not qualified for that sort of thing, but I always said, why should I go see a shrink when all they are going to do is tell me what I already know? When you have multiple personalities you have two options, they are not clear cut, but in the basic view, you can either accept them or reject them. I think that the best option varies between people and the different personalities that you have. I tried accepting mine (I have 8 at casual count) but they are all rather different, don't get me wrong, they have pieces that tie them together. But when you have a very promiscuous character and a very devoted monogamous character within the same person, your bound to have problems. And I did, I hurt two very wonderful men, and I hated myself for it. The guilt and the hatred bring out the most feared of myselves, the one that we called the Gollum. It wants nothing but to hurt me. So as I found, I was getting nowhere. It was time to stir things up, start again. For the last few months, I have been carefully constructing cages and walls within myself, ones that will help me control my mees. The me that is in control is one that I am happy with, she seems reasonable and behaved, she is not strong tho, and I will have to work on that.

The next while will not be easy, I know this, but I must try. And if you want to follow the progress, that is fine. I promise that not every entry will be this boring :)

Long time....

2007-07-20T10:11:00.000-07:00

...No type, I apologise. Life's hectic at the moment, and I have to programme myself into writing regularly. Maybe when I have a regular routine, Ill be able to slot time in... We will see.

Well firstly, Id like to say, I am totally in love with Bruce Campbell! Lol. I got all nostalgic and watched the entire series of Brisco County Jnr, and Jack of All Trades. They are brilliant, he is totally under utilised as an comedic icon. If your interested his brother created an awesome comic Danger Girl In which the character Johnny Barracuda is based on Bruce Campbell.

So anyway, we got a new manager at work, he seemed like a pretty nice guy, that was until we started talking, turns out he writes reviews for VGNZ and he is a total geek, so now hes awesome Lol. Hes introduced new rules tho, that mean I am no longer allowed to play my DS at work or read Empire mags :(

Speaking of Reviews, my crappy review site is up and running..... Reviews By E

Take Two

2007-06-18T05:53:00.000-07:00

So here it goes, a new step, a new direction, the continuation of learning to be me.

I used to blog here: Spun, it was good. I got to express a lot about one aspect of me (a big aspect) my geekiness. You should check it out :). Thing is tho, Spun and I broke up. And that means that I stuffed up the project, it was no longer what it was supposed to be, and no longer appropriate for me to encroach on his space.

So here I am, doing my own thing, watching myself become a grownup, and trying to keep up with the world around me.

I'm sitting at work at the moment, doing a 12hour night shift, 7am-7pm. I work in a cab company as a call center supervisor/dispatcher. I like it, it gives me lots of time to do the stuff I like; read Empire, play my DS, surf the web, and work on things like this. I am also a member of Deviantart, and of course MySpace. All this stuff keeps me entertained. Not that my Mum likes it. Not really using my qualifications here.... I have a B.A in Theatre and Film studies, and a Graduate Diploma in Secondary teaching. Technically I should be teaching Drama or Media in a school somewhere... Life long dream= To Direct movies :D

At home I live with Spun, 2 other awesomely geeky guys, A dinosaur, his clone, his girl friend and his son, and 2 demonic kitties. Its an interesting dynamic.... lol.

Oh well that's it for now, ill try be frequent in my typing, and not ramble as much as I did this time... hehe